A little bit about me:
I want to live in a world where women, men, and children are empowered to be true to themselves, where uniqueness and creativity are celebrated, and where respect and civility reign. I unshakably believe that if each of us were able to live in alignment with our deepest selves the world would be a more peaceful and productive place. I have found that the best way I can contribute to helping this ideal world emerge is through becoming a wellness coach, group facilitator, and artist.
My aim, through my work, my words, and my art, is to enable people to be more themselves – to support them in breaking the stifling chains of “Expectation,” “Should,” and “Have to.” I am here as a guide on the journey to authenticity and fulfillment and invite you to join me in the adventure of living fully.
What brought me to coaching?
A long, winding, often challenging, and ultimately beautiful path:
Adopted at the age of 3 days old, I knew from my earliest years that my parents weren’t my birth parents. I knew how my parents had received an unexpected and much anticipated phone call one night, with the message that the adoption agency had a baby girl waiting for them. I knew that in each individual moment and over many blended years my mom and dad did everything they could to give me love, opportunity, and support. Despite this, despite knowing how much I was wanted and loved, for many years all I could focus on was:
“But why was I given away?"
"What was wrong with me?"
"What did I do to make them not want me?”
Those questions ran in the background of everything I did. Sometimes they whispered, other times they shouted loudly. Always, they made me doubt myself. They made me fearful that I could do something or say something that would make other people give up on me and give me away. They also primed me to do what other people thought I should do, to live up to other people’s expectations ahead of my own, to look past my inner compass to the direction other people set for me – all for the sake of staying loved, being accepted, feeling safe.
Then, in my early adult years, an inexplicable anger started welling up inside of me that took my breath away and shook me to my core. I didn’t know where it was coming from or what to do with it. I was afraid to let it out and it felt like hell to keep it in. And it made me feel even more unlovable and unacceptable.
Over time, I found myself dating the wrong guys, looking for the feeling that I was “ok”. I’d fall for the swoon, for the excitement of feeling so alive, for the "proof" of being loveable, and for the seeming sense of security of being part of a couple. But each of these relationships – including my 9 year marriage - left me wanting, lacking, feeling miserably, and completely unsure of myself. The problem was that I was looking for love and acceptance from the outside in rather than creating it from the inside out.
It was during the dissolution of my marriage that things started to turn around. Every morning for the first week after separating I’d wake up in tears. I was shell shocked, scared, and feeling so utterly broken. At the end of that week, my mom asked me: “What do you want to do with this experience?” Without a moment of hesitation I replied “I want to help other women avoid this. I’ve always known what I need I just didn’t know how to honor that knowing – how to stand up for it. I want to help other women know how to honor themselves.”
It’s taken some serious work, more than a few tears, a handful of colorful words, and a healthy amount of ups and downs, but with great support and active learning I’ve figured out how to create love and acceptance from the inside. I can contentedly say “I am more comfortable in my own skin now than I ever have been.” My life finally feels like mine.
Throughout my journey, I’ve been fortunate to work with skilled counselors and effective coaches who helped me to see beyond my limiting story and to open up new possibilities. I turned to trusted friends and family, allowing them to show me what they saw as my strengths and potential. And I also reconnected to a childhood love: art. Through painting and writing poetry I discovered a way to make sense of my experiences, craft my inner resilience, and learn how to trust in myself and in the process of life.
As I considered my next steps, my mission led the way. I found that the best way I could further my own growth and to support others in honoring themselves was to become a coach. Coaching’s foundation in positive psychology, emphasis on enhancing awareness and developing life skills, and foundational belief that each of us has within us the answers that we need were (and still are) inspiring to me. It is my pleasure to share this information with you, as you travel the journey to your best self.
Some Other Fun Facts About Me:
- I’m a single mom to a young son who regularly inspires me to reach beyond what I think I’m capable of.
- Waterslides, moon bounces, and trampolines bring me great happiness (and I’ve been thrilled to have more access to them than usual, being the mom of a young son).
- Drawing is one of the most meditative activities I engage in.
- Growing up, I wished with all my heart that I had been a child of the 60’s.
- I'm facinated by traditional food ways and enjoy fermenting vegetables, baking bread, and creating cordial syrups.
- Natural areas with lots of rocks to scramble on and appreciate make my spirit feel content.
- The two Portlands – Portland ME and Portland OR - are (currently) my favorite spots in the US.
- I spent one teenage summer working in the pickle and tractor parts factories of an Israeli kibbutz.
- Singing in a chorus makes me feel alive in a way that nothing else does. There is something magical in hearing my voice meld with others to create an amazing sound.
By the way... the artwork you see thorugh out this website was created by me :) I hope you enjoy!